Friends

Something I realized right now is this - I don't know what I would do without my friends. I know it seems a little....I don't know the word for it, but I never had thought about how much I'm going to miss them all when I graduate. Sure, that's a long time from now...but the speed at which I've been seeing this semester has really made me think about it. I just hope that after undergrad, we all don't end up getting busy with our own schedules and never see each other again.

Maybe it's because for me, friendship is something I treasure so much. I don't know... I guess you can say its something that is really important to me. I know I've felt completely hurt by some of the people I've thought of as friends and I've sometimes cried about it too. Maybe it's just a damn gap that in a way, I caused...and in other ways, they have caused. It may be that they are hurting me unintentionally, but either way, it hurts.

I know I've talked with a couple people about this. The four years of high school that I've shared with my closest friends have been amazing. And all the new friends I've made in uni, we've just got so close. We have an amazingly strong friendship bond that keeps us together...and I hope nothing, NOTHING, ever breaks us apart. Sure it seems a little "filmy" like my cousin would put it, but I feel like I really need to get it out. Whenever I'm with you guys, it seems like my problems all melt away, like they were never there in the first place.

And just because I feel the need to tell this - I really love you guys. I don't think I could ever have better friends that I do right now...and I just started crying. Wow, way to go me.

I don't know why I felt like writing this note - its just something I felt like I had to write out...something I would rather scream out and if it wasn't 5:30 in the morning, I might have too. :P

On a lighter note - I just realized I'm not as articulate as I'ld like to be. Oh well.